the truth is that i’m in love with every beautiful woman on the planet.

a conversation with sinmi.

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So, what exactly is the truth?

The truth is that I am in love with every beautiful woman on the planet. I want to walk with them and put one arm around their necks so it frees up the other to rub their forehead. I want to feed them meatpies and listen to everything they have to say. I want to say to them “hey, it’ll be fine” and mean it. If I could have a deep connection with every woman i considered beautiful, I honestly would.

Are your affections ever concentrated on one person?

At every point in time, yes. I think sometimes, it’s weird to explain that I mean everything I say while in love with one woman. People don’t believe you can "move on" from love so quickly, and that’s where the problem lies. I am not moving on from love, I am always in love. This is my constant state.

Are you sure this isn’t a response to something?

I don’t know, I haven’t considered that. At one point, I thought I was just being greedy - wanting all the women in the world. but now? mehh

It depends on what you want with them, largely. but, acceptance is important - I’m glad you’re comfortable in your state.

It differs from person to person. Like - I feel sexual attraction for some of them. And for some, I just want to hold hands and watch a movie. For others, I like to admire them from afar without ever meeting in person. I just imagine that physical contact would ruin what they stand for in my head.

Do you pursue all these attractions?

No, it’s impossible, although the platonic (?) ones are easy to pursue.

That’s fair. on a scale of 1-10 how much do you like yourself?

5. A solid 5. Solid, respectable, average 5.

(laughs) — that’s fair. I’m just trying to understand your state of mind.

Do you think I might be loving women because I don’t love myself? That I might be compensating somehow?

It’s a possibility. But let’s stay on track and talk numbers. So, on the average, how many of these women do you pursue?"

A very tiny percentage - there’s an incredible number of beautiful women in the world. I am content with loving most of them from my Twitter timeline.

I’m going to hope and trust that there’s nothing behind it. You seem to be handling your nature (?) well.

I think so too. I mean, it bothers me sometimes, but it’s mostly interesting. Does it bother you?

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